why u so kaypoh?

2011-07-15T22:20:00.000+08:00

changed + attitude

Scrambled Thoughts..

2009-11-09T23:26:00.002+08:00

I am not a donation to be given away when someone else needs..

Past is Past.. too bad it's over.. I am not looking back..

When i realised it.. i am glad its over..

This topic is really getting onto my nerves..

Are you indirectly trying to piss me off? But that will not make me turn back..

Please come to ur senses on what u had said and what u are trying to say..

At the end of the day what do u take me as?

If i tell u that i regretted.. then i am in the wrong..

shhhhhhhh... slience is golden

2009-07-21T00:15:00.002+08:00

Sometimes i think.... i should just.... *zip it*

say too much that will offend others? becoming bad mouthing..

All in reverse that will also hurt oneself at the end..

code name...

2009-07-07T13:58:00.000+08:00

787 124 457

:):)

well....

2009-07-02T00:06:00.001+08:00

2009-06-30T23:08:00.001+08:00

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now thats how you decode it..lol
correct anot... ah mian?

de code this!

2009-06-30T22:38:00.001+08:00

igfregnonrhioo
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got it?:)

Da Vinci Code

2009-06-29T00:22:00.004+08:00

Drawing a line? making it clear cut? begining to have a barrier?

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i hope not.....:(

koyawgnorwehttiekattnodesaelp?gnitespusyawlaneebuoyotsrewsnaymllasah?emitehtlladetartsafosuoygnikamima

Truth..

2009-06-15T23:36:00.004+08:00

is it true?

I've got so many things to say but i just construct out in words. Everything is just in a jumble. Mix up like a bowl of salad.

You know me well.. i don't ask or say anything... sure? i mean i actually dun say anything at all without you asking?

i don't know you well.. sure? does that mean i don't care or don't remember or don't ask?

or in comparison i am not even half as or maybe quarter as talkative like some other people?

i make u feel awakard?

head is like a pin ball machine.. fingers are........confused lost.. be back when focus..

another sick day

2009-05-14T23:02:00.002+08:00

and now u are sick.. just as sick as me.. your temp was 38.6 and you told me it was normal.. haiz.. i feel so bad.. its all my fault.. if i didnt ask u to come you wouldn't have gotten sick.. your voice changed when u woke up.. head felt hot all day.. please go see a doctor if u are unwell ok?

my fault my fault my fault my fault....

sick week

2009-05-13T15:51:00.002+08:00

I feel horrible and i feel terrible.. never before have i felt this sick.. temp running at 39.1 degreesC. My head felt like it was gonna get cooked anytime.. i vomited, my throat was gonna burst..The whole night i couldn't sleep well.. Haven't been sleeping well for the past 2 nights already.

I was glad that you were beside me.. I was glad that you made food for me.. but being a sick person i am i was trying to keep a distance to u. I didnt want u to contract my sickness.

i always make u upset.. all the time.. i am so stupid.. i am so dumb.. i feel like an idiot.. made a mess of everything.. i am useless..

???

2009-04-02T23:51:00.002+08:00

dot dot ... dot dot.. dot dot.. dot... = dot dot dot... dot.... dot dot....

simple equation...

Everytime....

2009-04-02T23:42:00.002+08:00

I think maybe i am just a disappointment everytime.................................................................

Maybe i am just a disappointment everytime.................

I am just a disappointment everytime....................

SHOUT AND LET IT ALL OUT

2009-01-22T01:11:00.003+08:00

i just need a place to shout!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AH!HHH!!!!!!!!!!HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HHHH!AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

time to dust off the webs.. back again.. The Start of 2009... How will it goes?

Guess the begining is here..
Maybe i can see why some took the leap. Why some rather hang.

Downfall starting from today i guess......... and its starting to happen. I hate it. F***ing hate this feeling! why is it back again??? Is the luck turning bad? I had flashes in my mind..

Cos i have found out something.. i guess maybe its true.. and the reason was quite disappointing to know when it came out. If you could choose either A or B rather than C or D what does that shows? Maybe cos the outcome of A & B will seem more comfortable. Easy way out instead. Maybe C & D seems more impossible than A & B. Well A & B doesn't actually shows any importance? Maybe? What ever it is.. i am not going to be bothered about this matter anymore. I am getting it out of my chest.

Why say so many times correct? Since its like 'ya i geddit... i understand..' Well... *shrugs*

But maybe one fine day... i will definately do something about it. Maybe ACCIDENTLY?

there.... i am all better now..

I Wish....

2008-08-19T20:40:00.001+08:00

I wish for this world to be a better place. For you and for me to live in.

I wish for this life of mine to be colourful. So the days are happy with smiles.

I know the wish i made is totally impossible, but one day it will happen.

I wish i could turn back the hands of time. So that i can change the mistakes i have made.

I wish that there is no anger in my life. So i would not tear a single drop.

I wish for the things, just turns out the opposite. Sometimes i am afraid to be awake, afraid to open my eyes, afraid to know that the present beholds.

I wish for you, i wish for me, i wish for everybody.

I wish i could change people's mind. So that they can think more of me.

I wish i could read people's mind. So that they can think less of me.

I wish my hands are outstretch. I want to help many people.

I wish my arms are spread open. To give you warmth, to hold, to secure.

I wish my dreams will come true. I wish... i wish...

Anonymous

So..

2008-04-06T03:26:00.002+08:00

So i am back into blogging.. Or are these my rantings? i don't care.. i will say what i wanna say coz... IT DOESN'T MATTER WHAT YOU THINK.. Judge me.. and i still don't care... :P

Updates?

Been to somewhere new.. A worthwhile experience.. maybe one of these days you peeps can go there for holiday.. where? Boracay(highly recommended) and Cebu.. The beach there is beautiful! better than phuket.. the sand is soft.. waters clear till you can see the bottom! My skin is peeling right now.. Uneven tan.. yuck! i got lots of PESOs left over.. anyone wanna change with me?

I've walked a lap.. back to the starting point where it all begins again.. warming up for another lap.. only time will tell.. Old already.. 1 leg in the big box.. half my life is gone.. another evolution starting.. mid life crisis? nah.. even if it was i will still make the best out of it.. live for the moment (heard it somewhere or some movie)

so the peeps are planning for another holiday.. guess its gonna be another plan that will never happen AGAIN.. better confirm soon so i can plan and book my leave soon.. dun wanna waste it again.. even though we still managed to go somewhere last year..

should i go for my advance in may?hmmm.. haven dive since 2004! don't remember where i kept my log book also..haha

well.. time to erase some memories.. seeya!

TIME TO MOVE ON AND GET OVER IT!

2008-04-05T03:37:00.002+08:00

ok kids.. so whats the moral of the story?

Being stuck in a time zone which evolves only around oneself.. break out of it.. so was it worth it? what was meant to be didn't turn out the way it should? i guess thinking about it for a long long time.. yeah.. best to give it all up then to be miserable in the near future.. why miserable some might ask.. my side of the story?

1. Maybe its all about YOU..
2. When you don't trust anyone from the start.. guess you will never will..
3. Compromising had become obsolete..
4. Affectionate and Passion = 0%
5. When do i have a chance to talk.. and even if i did.. are u interested?
6. Lazyness or simply not interested..
7. I was quite sure and ready till.... i opened my eyes and ears..
8. Alcohol actually brings out the true self..
9. I was tired too.. but i try to be active..
10. How many missed calls again?

more listings? can be as thick as the yellow pages.. each have its own list.. So are there any positive points which i can list out? errrrr ..maybe?i shouldn't campare right? each is different.. my eyes can tell.. whatever i did or do i have no regrets in doing.. cos i think i have considered and thought about it for awhile.. better to put up a fake front showing that u are happy? nah.. abit hard and difficult..

all i can say is sorry.. sorry to have wasted your time.. sorry for making you wait.. sorry because i was not ready..but thank you for showing me what you are and have become.. thank you for letting me take my time and realise what i was in to..

time to move on.. get over it.. its not the end of the world.. the sun will rise again.. brighter days ahead..

p.s .. say whatever you want.. i don't care..

2007-10-11T23:54:00.000+08:00

WHATS WRONG WITH YOU BOY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU ARE A BIG PIECE OF SHIT! DON'T FORCE ME TO GIVE YOU A TIGHT SLAP ACROSS YOUR FREAKING FACE!!!!!

//\\

2007-10-09T00:57:00.000+08:00

i got this feeling...
let you know if i am right soon....

wassssssssup!!!

2007-07-23T23:27:00.000+08:00

now how long as it been since i last updated? for all those who have been clicking onto this page... why are you so kaypoh? hahaha just kidding.. nice to know that you all still support and interested in my live stories... now whats new..??

hopefully to get the RUSH by the end of this month.. looking for decals already.. maybe a spoiler as well!!

finally going for a holiday in 2 weeks! not a place that i am excited about but its good enough.. somewhere to go at least. relex and rest the mind and body.. been overworked the whole week.. i hate doing roll-over engines! esp in ETF! how can you expect 2 person to do a 4 men job? it is totally madness!!! getting tired and fat... need to exercise.. and more!

think my expenses for the year is going to increase..

hopefully i can get my approvel for BSI before the end of the year.. but by the looks of it.. difficult.. no chance to do..

will apply for engineering?maybe... see how.. currently shift work sucks big time! i lost track of days.. all i know i need to work 4 days and rest 2.. no weekends.. night shift is just too long...

can't wait to go for the smackdown tour this weekend!!!! will post pics if i can take any..

new game out.. but.... addictive..control...

ciao peepz~

2007-07-05T03:45:00.000+08:00

just wondering does anyone still update their blogs? so many things to say but so lazy to type....zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Never had a chance.. Or missing chances?

2007-05-14T23:41:00.000+08:00

isn't ironic that sometimes you wish things shouldn't be this way but it just turned out to be?or maybe hope is something you dream about?or something that doesn't concerns you but it is affecting you in one way or another? is depression same as lost hope? questions in life that are really ironic to some.. too wierd to overcome.

it's a matter of how you look at it.. it's funny how things around you relates to your everyday life. even watching a comedy or even a movie.. maybe be funny to some.. jokes to others.. if one gets to understand ..sometimes it just relates to you.. name me one movie that best describes your life.? i can think of afew.. can you?

my mind is not at peace for the past week.. all over the place.. can't seem to concentrate on something or stay focus for long.. i look back over my shoulders and all i see is regrets, false promises, pain and suffering.. i look forward and all i see is a big jungle, dark, wet, unpredictable.. not willing to adventure through it.. guess i am afraid of that lies ahead of me.

was talking to a friend at work the other day.. telling me about how he like someone.. i have somehow become a 'aunite aggie' at work.. funny how some of them can come and talk to me about this kinda stuff.. before i move on i ask him why u telling me these.. its not like we are damn close friends.. he told me he just need to let it out and i look like the kind who can talk to..i felt honored man.. din know i am that kind of person.. anyways we took a smoke and he told me how he like this girl.. she is the kind who fills up the gap he's been longing for. but one day she had to go 'home' and will never come back again. he din had the chance to say goodbye.. well its a long story but i will keep it short.. he didnt know what he was feeling.. sad.. angry.. regretful.. somehow i shared his pain.. like a chain effect.. i felt sorry for him.. i know in his heart he was sad.. sad that something is going missing .. missing apart of him.. like a cup being empty again.. she told him she was leaving.. asking him to call her.. but he could not get her.. calling so many times but the phone wasn't on.. he felt lost.. unknown.. he din had a chance to say how he felt or goodbye.. i told him.. well.. it what ever it is u should have enjoyed it.. maybe its just time to cut it off cos this kind of thing wont last forever.. maybe it could..i dunno.. either stick to the happy memories and smile about it.. or bury the sadness deep inside your head and not think about it anymore. can't have both.. cos all u will feel is pain inside.. i didnt quite understand what i was saying at that time but i think he got the message.. maybe she din want u to reach her cos she too wanted to feel the same... leave on a high.. he asked me.."... ..... ... ... .... .......... ......." we took out another stick and smoked..

its wierd.. that gap that he missed.. its like you holding an empty glass and everyone starts pouring drinks.. you know its going to be full but you just dun want it to be empty.. but once the glass breaks and start leaking.. its time to mend.. if not its gonna drip till its dry.. and no matter how much u pour in.. it will never be filled..his was broken.. like an accident.. dropped.. could not salvage it anymore.. broken pieces that are impossible to fix back.. time will heal? maybe.. get another glass u say.. sure.. but he still will remember the old one..

think everyone is going through that.. holding a glass on their hands.. empty?full?half? leaking?

head is spinning alot.. new shift is starting and all of us are split into different crews.. i am looking for a job now.. hopefully overseas.. life here is kinda stale already.. need a change.. changing of cars?target is in july.. see what lies ahead of me in the coming month. i need a break.. 1 or 2 days off somewhere will be good.. short trip to find myself back.. put it all in 1 piece again.. pull my mind together.. start fresh.. try not to be affected.. even though its like that.. its true that you can never change the past.. fate has decided the path.. i am not looking forward to the future.. i cant see whats beyond today.. its all in a mist.. i need to set my road markings.. is something wrong with me? i hope not.. i hope this feeling is just coming and passing through and not staying.. when i close my eyes at night i cant sleep.. i try to keep the lights on.. has blogging become a place of unhappiness? sucks huh..

it's so hard to know

2007-05-04T17:27:00.000+08:00

finally got my new com up and running.. new hard drive, new mother board...faster and better! thanks to bren and kev for helping! now need to transfer all my data over..

lot's of things going on inside my head again.. work is getting more and more sian.. i enjoy working with the people.. but not the management.. its getting more and more like an army camp rather than a private company.. starting to find another job now..

back to my short story..

useless updates

2007-04-04T23:24:00.000+08:00

so what happened lately? same old same old..

last weekend me and the gf had a room at sentosa spa and resort.. wanted to have a spa but it was so goddamm ex!~ the price? can go batam and have a 3 hr spa twice.. room was nice though.. big LCD tv.. big bed.. big toilet.. went to del mar for dinner.. watched dvd.. went vivo ate like carnivors

had an interview at RR.. the post wasnt as what i have expected it to be.. well...same company but different subs.. job scope? field service rep.. so the job requires me to travel 90% of the time.. hardly in town.. will miss lots of stuffs.. will u take the job?maybe not? if u were paid a 5digit amt? well.. they have yet called me back since so i guess i need not think about it anymore..

was in reservist afew weeks back.. talked to some of the guys.. even though u see them once a year its quite funny how much u can get along with them after awhile.. i managed to complete 2 books during my stay in.. tell u the truth.. one of the book that i've read if so meaningful.. it's called 'Tuesdays With Morrie'. i truely recommend this to everyone.. its an easy read.. this book gives u a preseption of the meaning of life and how once should face when u know u are dying.. it touched me.. quoting fromt the book.."Death ends lives... not relationships.."

so how is one depressed? its when u keep on thinking about the things over and over and over in your head.. stuck..

well.. nuff said..

wife material?

2007-03-06T13:59:00.000+08:00

heh..

2007-02-25T02:51:00.000+08:00

Lessons learnt:-

don't be what you can't be
don't hope what you can't hope
don't think what you can't think
don't wish what you can't wish

sometimes i look around and ask myself... do i want this for my future? is it worth it? is it right? do i need to expect the unexpected? or is it that much already that i cannot ask for more. or maybe i shouldn't expect anything else cos it will never happen again. why others can but not me? maybe its the enviroment around me.. maybe its me...maybe its you... just maybe..

its impossible that will ever happen. cos its just impossible. situated in 2 different places.. different cultures.. different background.. maybe.. just maybe... but impossible..it will never work out. its too hard... can try but......maybe...

well my life isn't exciting.. there comes to a point where everything becomes stagnent. even mosquitos can lay eggs in it. the same routine everyday.. when i look down i am sad.. when i look across i am sad.. when i look around i am sad.. i am not the same person as work .. keeping a low profile now.. maybe its better for me.. maybe...

just for the record.. '... ...'

what do i want?

i feel the same..

Happy Valentines Day

2007-02-14T16:31:00.000+08:00

Another year where couples spend most of their money on each other buying gifts and flowers. Well.. usually its the guys who are doing that. All they want is to make their partner feel special. Love is shared between 2 people and not alone.

Someone told me today..' i've been married for 10years now. Everyday to me is Valentines day...' touching! Almost brought a tear to my eye...well actually... when i saw my pay slip today and knowing about the COE price it almost brought a tear to my eyes. but thats beside the point. SO... treat everyday as valentines day. its how u make the day special for one another. it could be a walk by the beach or an expensive dinner or a sizzling night together... most important thing is to be happy... accomadiating... nice.. kind.. make ur partners feel close and loved..

Happy Valentines Day!!
hope u like the flowers bb...

nothing much again to say

2007-01-19T01:03:00.000+08:00

actually nothing much to blog about lately. feeling lazy to type so much already. things that need to be said are sometimes best not said out. can just play it over and over agian in your head. can just close your eyes and listen the the world around you. close your ears and look carefully. things will always be different when hearing and looking. anyways.. hope this year will be a better year for me. so much to expect but hard to achieve. we shall see how it goes. not aiming high for anything..

the only thing to look forward this month is my bonus.
going to genting late feb..heh heh.. time for some investment!
maybe going to USA west coast.. *pending*
getting a new car.
changing departments/post?
reservist in march*yawn*
changing shift in june?

merry xmas!!!!!

2006-12-25T04:29:00.000+08:00

Wishing all a MERRY CHRISTMAS and a HAPPY NEW YEAR...

i need a shout out!!!
i need what i don't have!!

you know.. sometimes i think if its really possible for something to happen.. but disappointment
is a fact. Jealous of others of the things i do not have, of the things i cannot accomplish. When u hope for a better future it turns out to be worse. To make it better one have to decide because its going to affect the next move. There is only 2 ways that u can go, forward or backwards. the only person who understand me is.. me. well.. hoping is one thing.. dreaming is another. i want to live in my dream. in that way i can be the happiest. life is precious.. play hard. work hard.

maybe.. just maybe....nest year will be a better year.......

cheers!

My latest craze!!!

2006-11-21T23:49:00.000+08:00

toyota rush!

2006-10-09T21:59:00.000+08:00

"It's not wrong to dream... sometimes you wish you were living in it..."

Chapter 2

Eric just wandered along the stretch, looking at all the decorations that was outside the shopping malls. 'Maybe this Christmas i should buy something nice for myself' he thought. He walked along Meyers and looked at the nice Hugo suit that was displayed at the window. That interest him and he went in to take a look.

"Bonjour..How much for the nice suit by the window?"
"It is on sale Sir. Going for 400euros" replied the nice sales assistant.

The price was reasonable and he thought awhile about it.

"Why don't you give it a try? I am sure it will fit pretty well on you." as the sales assistant gave him a huge smile.

Eric has never been a good shopper. When he see something that he likes he will think about it for very long before he make his decision.

He paused and thought for awhile and told the sales assiatant some other time. He hesitated and finally made up his mind. "Not today, i think i will consider it for awhile." He gave a nice smile back to the sales assistant and walked away.

He walked out of Meyer and continued his way back home. The weather was getting colder as the snow starts to drop more. The streets were turning white from the snow and the traffic was heavy. He hurried to the bus stop as the crowd followed behind him. The bus stop was packed with people. All chatting away with their big shopping bags. The bus arrived and the people around him start to squeeze up the bus. There was no way he could squeeze with those people up the bus. Even if he did he would be squashed up like a sardine in a can. He waited for while and more people were at the queue. He looked around thinking he could flag a taxi back but it was all the same. The shopping malls were closing and the crowd were trying to catch their transport home. The bus stop was packed and even the taxi queue was long. At this state Eric will never make it home. After all that he saw he might as well walk home.

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Sometimes its just hard. Sometimes you just want things to go your way. That's what Eric thought for a very long time. He misses being close to someone. He felt envy of those who walked by, hugging and holding each other.

"How nice it is to be in love again.." He had lost someone long ago and never had he been together with someone else since. All he wanted is to dream of his own fairytale. Making up his own world and scenes with his dream girl.

"Maybe it is coming to an end. Since things are already becoming so quiet between us. We are not being as close to each other anymore. You can't expect me to work things out alone if you are not going to do the same. What once we had is now fading... ..." Those words kept on repeating in his head. He can no longer hold back the memories of his previous relationship and started tearing. He had a nice girlfriend who both shared beautiful times together. Things change, seasons change and so does people. One started to drift away from another and things are just not the same anymore. Eric was accpeting the change a step at a time but he was not happy about it. He tried very hard to work things out between them but the other was not wiling to do the same. No more fuel to burn the fire and the flame just slowly extinguished. They went their separate ways. Eric moved to Paris to start a new life. He knew there was no point in staying anymore. Running away was his only escape route from misery.

His walk home was becoming longer and longer. The road looks endless and his footsteps was smaller and smaller. His had too many things on his mind already. Why the depression on a festive mood? It's the holidays and everyone should be happy. Eric wanted to be happy. He forced a smile on his face as he continued walking.

"Oi Mister!"

Eric was shocked at the loud noise.

"Mister!"

There is goes again. He looked around and was surprised to find himself walking along a dark alley. He did not recognise this route. He might have taken a wrong turn back at the junction. Too many thoughts. He saw a man waving at him and he walked towards him.

Reality Check Vs Reality Bites

2006-09-25T15:28:00.000+08:00

my eyes are opened.
i've heard the words.

Truely inspired...

Chapter 1

It was a wet and cold night in paris. This year's winter was colder than normal. Snow starts to fall form the sky to the tiles below. The streets were buzzing with people as they were all rushing to do some last minute christmas shopping. All the shopping malls will be closing late today. People carrying big bags squeezing through the massive crowd to get a taxi. All were in a joyous mood because the office were closed for the festive holidays.

Eric was still in his office clearing up some last minute work. His client wanted him to close this deal before the week end. He had no choice. Being the sales manager of the company he was assigned to stay back.

Eric has always been a loner. His parents passed away in a car accident when he was 12 and his grandmother took care of him ever since. From then on, he has learnt to be independent. He made his way through school with good grades. His grandmother has always been insperational to him, giving him the advice of life. "You got to learn to be strong and not let others bully you" said his grandmother. "when someone take advantage of you they will continue to do so. Never let them. Learn to stand up for yourself". For Eric, he was always kind. Even though he knew people were taking advantage of his kindness, he still lets them. All he wanted were friends, friends who know how much he meant to them. He worked his way up from there. He has lots of contacts and managed to find a job in the largest advertising company in Paris. At first he was just an assistant, learning the ropes from his mentor. It only took him only 5years to get his manageral post, something which was amazing.

It was way past midnight and Eric has finally finished his work and ready to leave. Chirstmas to him was just like any other day. No one to celebrate with, everyone from work will be with their family. Eric has no family. His only kin had moved on a couple of years back. He remembered at the hospital where he was standing beside his grandmother's bed, she was smiling at him. Eric held her hands and thanked her for bringing him up. She closed her eyes and did not open them again. The doctors tried very hard to bring her back but Eric told them not to. "She is tired and now she wants to sleep. I know. Let her rest".

The tables were packed nicely and the computer was shutting down. He walked over to his coat and switched off all the lights in the room. Time to go home. He grabbed his stuffs and left the room. He put on his coat and walked off. Maybe this holiday will be different he thought.

As he walked out of his office building he saw the crowd rushing across him in both ways. There were all cheery and happy. Couples holding each other, families carrying presents... ... That put a smile on his face. Even though it was cold he felt the warmth coming from within him. He joined into the crowd and walked away as the snow sprinkle down onto Paris. The lights of the street and the decorations lited up.

normal ongoings~

2006-09-22T15:58:00.000+08:00

truely inspired... i am going to start writing a novel in here.. since my everyday life is just the same and nothing exciting has been going on for so long.. think i should make up a fictional one.. till then... wait for my bestseller...need to gather all my thoughts together then i will start... hmmm...

so what are we going to do today?

in no particular order..

2006-08-23T16:44:00.000+08:00

2006-08-23T16:31:00.000+08:00

wassup peeps! i am back from aussieland! it was a wonderful and a much needed trip! need to go for a long holiday.. the weather there was great! i love the cold. totally enjoyed it. did lots of stuffs down there. esp going to all the casinos. anyways fyi i went to brisbane-gold coast-melbourne.

inflight entertainment has improved over the years.. or maybe i have been taking budget so often i have forgotten how its like with a build in screen in the seat infront of me. watched lots of movies and played nitendo .. meals on board was not fantastic but was edible.

met yang and somehow celebrated his birthday there for him. treated him to a nice dinner of lamb steamboat.. yummy.. by then we were all starving already. anyways thanks for bringing us around when we were there. pai sae that have to trouble you to fetch us to gold coast.. its like an hour drive there and back. wanted to go sky diving but was out of my budget. or maybe if i din visit the casino so often i might have money to do it huh?heh... went to one of the worlds..WB.. as usual went to relive my childhood.. have u guys ever tried the superman ride???? it was !!!!!!! i wanted to sit again but as usual the gf legs were shaking...

then at melbourne stayed with the gf's friend place at docklands. the place was nice.. glass walls all around. got sea view somemore.. well.. not exactlly sea but was near victoria harbour. we went skiing also! i think i am quite ooook with it.. the gf was a bit of a 'meow'. abit only scared.. but who can blame her.. (ahem).. next time i will try snowboarding.. think it will be much easier since i have alittle mat blood in me.. hahahah.. lazy to type so much.. shall upload some pics..

next holiday.....EUROPE!!!

2006-08-18T01:08:00.000+08:00

i love the cold..
losing at casinos...
one bad thing is shops close early here...

Miss Universe

2006-07-28T16:09:00.000+08:00

The pagent was great! All the girls were fantastic! Especially Miss Japan! She has that sparkling look! I cant take it anymore! i am falling in love with her! muahahahaha! She should have won it! Think the judges were bias against asianz... damn u...
can check her out on some webbies..
http://blog.arekao.jp/muj_kurara/
http://www.missuniverse.com/delegates/2006/files/JP-photo-show_gown.html
http://www.missosology.org/missuniverse06/mu06focus.html

alittle peak ...

updated rules

2006-07-21T17:40:00.001+08:00

ok here it is. the rules are updated and finalised.

1. No Half Poks.
2. No 7 pairs.
3. No extra 1 double when dun eat for peng hu or any combination.
4. when za hu pay limit price be it za hu 1 or 5 doubles.
5. Tian hu only for banker.
6. di hu only for the 1st card throw.
7. if bao da never say not counted. (esp for that person)
8. 9piece never say not counted.

Rules are stated and final.

updated rules

2006-07-21T17:40:00.000+08:00

ok here it is. the rules are updated and finalised.

2006-07-13T13:43:00.000+08:00

You Are Barney

You could have been an intellectual leader... Instead, your whole life is an homage to beer
You will be remembered for: your beautiful singing voice and your burps
Your life philosophy: "There's nothing like beer to give you that inflated sense of self-esteem."

The Simpsons Personality Test

surprisingly.... hmmmm... whahaha i am not a glutton!

2006-07-13T13:21:00.000+08:00

Your Deadly Sins

Sloth: 40%

Envy: 20%

Greed: 20%

Pride: 20%

Gluttony: 0%

Lust: 0%

Wrath: 0%

Chance You'll Go to Hell: 14%

You will get bugs, because you're too lazy to shoo them off. And then you'll die.

How Sinful Are You?

i dun believe this...!

2006-07-13T13:17:00.000+08:00

You Are Elektra

There's really no superhero with more style than you.Because who could beat being sexy assasin ninja?

What Superhero Are You?

2006-07-11T02:31:00.000+08:00

personal best ---> 1695
update.. company bonus.. 3 or 4..
overall win..
italy will win every 12 years* (reminder for next 3 world cup)

the mark of a true kiao kwee

2006-07-08T17:57:00.000+08:00

"i cannot stop my itching!!!!!!!! i am a kiao kwee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! body cannot take it..!!!!!!!! need to go to casino!!!!!!!!!!! somebody help me stop my itch!!!!!!!!!!"

bleh

2006-07-08T17:51:00.000+08:00

'enuff said.. becoming alike..
possibilities 65%
counting.. 3.... 4...
cos i remember..

hmmmm

2006-06-07T22:20:00.000+08:00

i wonder...whats the difference between' you want something that you can't have?' and 'you need something but not given' ?

for all mj lovers out there!

2006-05-30T00:14:00.000+08:00

There will be a mahjong workshop coming up soon for intermidiate players.
Course details will include --
how to stack the tiles faster.
Decrease thinking time.
Eliminate 1/2 pok.
Knowing rules and regulations.
Playing with 'joker'.
How not to become a 'kway neng'

All interested please forward their names and particulars to me. A parents concent form will be sent out and have to be replied with full signature of parents if you are under 21.

Upcoming events:
36hours Mahjong marathon
Overseas training conducted by Hanny.(heh heh)

A list of house rules will be endorsed soon by me. Anyone who has any rules that would like to be enforced have to be submitted with at least 2 reasons. Otherwise all applications will be taken void.

Thank You

nothing much.. but...

2006-05-17T01:25:00.000+08:00

blogging is like keeping a diary.. sooner or later u are going to get lazy of updating about things that are going on in ur life. the same old thing every.. sleep.. wake up.. work.. eat.. sleep.. wake up.. nothing interesting going on.. need to feel a big impact.. but then again.. no impact.. anyways writing this is pratically writing a story book.. think i shall do that.. a chapter of a fictious story.. 1st i need a title.. jotting down the dreams .. writing columns like sex & the city.. huh huh?? good idea? something interesting for a change.. shall sleep early today hehehe.. will think of a title of this story tmr..

btw.. to my dearest.. hope u feel better tmr.. if u are not ok better go see a doctor ya!

and shall i suggest some of the peeps to shut their blogs down?

as the saying goes.. dun live in a box.. live outside the box.

2006-05-03T01:50:00.000+08:00

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anti-depression starts now. its a chain reaction.

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7 deadly sins
which one do you have?

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being different

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change

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ways to becoming again
what is used to
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I want to watch MI3 and X3! huge summer blockbasters coming up! shall head to ***** again to buy some dvds back. want to go somewhere cold this time. deciding between aussie and nz. aussie been before.. nz relexing.. up north also kinda nice. can visit some relatives there. should i take 2 weeks leave during oct/nov? still got 20days left.. shall decide fast. better apply early.

Voting day on 6th May.
PAP or WP? after watching the James G**** saga on tv.. think i have already made my choice. see you at the voting booth!

holiday holiday

2006-04-26T23:16:00.000+08:00

need one.. suggesting...

NZ! anyone interested???
maybe in august period...?
winter time.. nice and cool...
scrap the genting idea...

Easter MOnday.

2006-04-17T12:07:00.000+08:00

What a week! work has been a loadful due to people on course and heavy WIP in the shopfloor! on some days i am pratically working alone on the engine. stressed out man.. lucky there was tiesto @MOS on friday. but dun really remember what time he was on.. hahahaha guess will have to read the rest of the peeps blog to find out. heard there were many people puking that night.. including YOU.. *yuck* on saturday the peeps went for zouk's 15th birthday.. but i've decided not to go.. no more alcohol for the week already. a chill out time will turn to someone getting drunk and people sending other people home and going to some place..(you know who i am talking about..heh heh.. ) think his flower blossom already.. TAO HUA YUN!!!! its about time u get a *ahem* already!!!you are our project superstar!!!hahahaha

think this week is going to be a long long week.. confirm overnite... wonder if our crew will kena.. or maybe not...hmmmmmmm..... well.. going to wash and vaccum my car now.. got one smell inside..

rantings?

2006-04-05T12:58:00.000+08:00

weekend nowadays is mostly about mahjong. all thanks to the giao guei kev we play pratically 24hours of mj last weekend! think my thumb is going to harden from 'mo-ing' the tiles. haha anyways think better cut down on the late nights of mj.. not good for the health. need to begin my exercise routine already.(IF i have any!) the gf is complaining we are playing too much everyweekend even though her hands sometimes shake..heh..

work wise its gonna be a busy week. need to push 15engines this month in order to hit the quaterly target. so u know what that means.. DIE LOH.. work like siao this month..

went to take my H11, L11 and C14 papers this week.. as usual.. SEE U AT THE NEXT SITTING! cannot make it.. all the topics are so different. think i need to borrow a text book to read up. an updated version one pleassssssssssse..

been thinking about it.....got to be sure.. * :) or :( how to know? will i be making a mistake? *

i saw tiesto on 14th april @ mos is 38bux for pretickets! so exxxxxxxxxxxxx!!! i am working on that day btw..

are we still going for the fugushi or fukishui whatever the play is called...??? or just say only?

powerboat at the end of the month! heard the theory is kinda hard.. need to know all the sea codes and all.. why did i sign up again? its not like i own or going to buy a boat..hahaha diving licence also take and keep already.. need to find a kaki.. brudder.. can bring me to a diving trip and get free advance??heheheh

2006-03-26T18:51:00.000+08:00

what happen to I?

2006-03-23T01:43:00.000+08:00

Your Hidden Talent

You're super sensitive and easily able to understand situations.You tend to solve complex problems in a flash, without needing a lot of facts.Decision making is easy for you. You have killer intuition.The right path is always clear, and you're a bit of a visionary.

What's" Your Hidden Talent?

any comments?hehhe

2006-03-23T01:39:00.000+08:00

Your Seduction Style: Au Natural

You rank up there with your seduction skills, though you might not know it.That's because you're a natural at seduction. You don't realize your power!The root of your natural seduction power: your innocence and optimism.
You're the type of person who happily plays around and creates a unique little world.Little do you know that your personal paradise is so appealing that it sucks people in.You find joy in everything - so is it any surprise that people find joy in you?
You bring back the inner child in everyone you meet with your sincere and spontaneous ways.Your childlike (but not childish) behavior also inspires others to care for you.As a result, those who you befriend and date tend to be incredibly loyal to you.

What Kind of Seducer Are You?

so is it true?hahaha

2006-03-23T01:29:00.000+08:00

Your Seduction Style: Siren / Rake

You possess an unbridled sensuality that appeals to many.
The minute you meet anyone, you can make the crave you almost immediately.
You give others the chance to lose control with you... spiraling into carnal bliss.
A dangerous lover, you both fascinate and scare those you attract.

What Is Your Seduction Style?

interesting...hahah

2006-03-19T23:52:00.000+08:00

Your Kissing Purity Score: 46% Pure

You're not one to kiss and tell...
But word is, you kiss pretty well.

Kissing'>http://www.blogthings.com/kissingpuritytest/">Kissing Purity Test

2006-03-07T01:59:00.000+08:00

so when does one hit a mid life crisis? maybe it has not happen to me yet but i think i can feel it coming.. turning 27 is no joke man.. and acting the way i am i dun think i can pull of as my age.. heart and mind still acting like i am 21.. i guess its time to get serious about some matters in life..

1st of all i think career is picking up its pace.. not that i am earning a 5 digit salary per month but alittle goes a long way.. time to start planning with my money.. cant be when i hit 30 and i am still broke.. need some spare $$$ in hand just in case something happens.. overtime only can cover that much.. when can i double my salary intake? should i change jobs after 3 years? should i stay on? unless my increment is full every year i dun mind staying.. why not? i like what i am doing.. mechanical work more than an office job.. think i can fall alseep infront of the com all day typing and looking at figures.. well.. different people different job scope.. anyways as i was saying.. need to start alittle planning for my next step.. 3 years down the road i am already 1 leg into the coffin.. and still with nothing.. who knows i might be in the M status before anyone knows it?now that WILL be surprising!!!!

nowsadays when the guys as me to go clubbing i am alittle hesident.. think its kinda tired to cheong and drink all nite.. maybe once in awhile but not every weekend.. i still need my liver for the next 25years..hahaha.. maybe we can do something different? but then again.. here there isnt much to do.. hows about wakeboarding?hmmm... healthy lifestyle? hmmm.. been puting on too much weight already... can feel my waist growing bigger to its past size.. exercise exercise!!! come on.. I CAN DO IT!!!

in a blink of an eye its gonna be 2 years old.. seems quite little but felt so old.. maybe cos i have known u for so long already huh? how long has it been? since i am 14 or 15? who would have expected for us to be together huh? this and that in between.. who cares whats in between or the beginning but whats at the end of the road rite? close down the past and enjoy the present and look forward to the future.. love u lots baby! hope u feel the same way too!!*grrrrr*

to my good pal VICKY and his brother RIK.. happy birthday!! the sentosa chalet is damn HUGE man! how on earth is 12 people going to squeeze into a room that size!?!?!? but the food was good and company was greeeeeeeeeeat! lastly to hanny... HAPPY birthday to u too!! u are gonna get it on saturday.. dun think i will be driving.. better be safe huh?:P

hey yall!

2006-02-22T01:46:00.000+08:00

been such a happening week once again.. last monday me and gf went for a pre valentines day dinner.. thinking that on the day itself she has to work late and places sure to be damn pack with couples and dinner prices are up the roof.. we went to the esplanade to have seafood dinner beside the merlion.. chilli crabs... yummy!! though the service was kinda poor.. we had our fill..
after which walked to across the road to fullaton hotel for some drinks before making our way back home..

vlanetines day.. had planned for my flowers to be sent to her office.. but instead it was delivered to my company instead!! ' our company SRC have this valentines thingy going on to order flowers cheap from some florist' so ok.. i ordered.. then a called came and heard i called the florist to send to the company instead.. what a scam man.. then after some confussion.. and blah blah.. someone on the 2nd floor felt so pai sae about it and deliver the flowers for me.. hehehe.. thanks! i owe u lunch!!! we went for a steamboat dinner and again ate our fill.. feeling so fat already.. think its time to start dieting and exercising...heh..

wonder whats so special about valentines day anyways.. everyday is a valentines day with my baby.. its how u spend time together.. no need to wait till that day once a year to do something special.. anytime can be special.. flowers and meals are so expensive.. scam!!!! to my ping guo.. i love u lots lots!!

then we are off to bangkok!!! again!! stayed at the same hotel again.. sorry bengz. we din go up to the sky lounge to see ur thai gf.. went to afew clubs this time instead of hollywood.. RCA was kinda good though they were playing lots of hip hop.. drinks are plenty.. 1 bottle shared between 4 people... finiahed within an hour.. fast huh.. went to bed supperclub.. music was fantastic! house trance and rave.. alittle small but good.. it was so porsh inside.. the whole palce was white.. din get a chance to get a 'bed' but the dance floor was good enough..

shopping was usuall ... MBK.. pathunam.. chachuchat.. and lots of road side stalls..bought the same t shirts ... and some art work which i think its damn cool.. i will take a pic of it once i hang it up..

main event for this trip was the rock festival.. been wanting to watch oasis since ever!! their gig was fantastic!! all my favourite songs!!! including wonderwall and don't look back in anger.. other bands performed too.. franz ferdihand..ian brown.. this time din really feel like taking photos.. but it was all good excpet for ONE thing in particular.. ahem*

anyways its back to work on monday.. sians.. but have to.. or not no $$$ for other trips.. no more bangkok already.. kinda tired from shopping.. want to go somewhere relaxing.. cooling.. nice view.. maybe diving.. well... lets see what the future holds huh?

anyways.. din have a chance to say goodbye to MUSCLE and YANG.. best in ur studies!!!

2006-02-13T01:59:00.000+08:00

heard a sad news this week.. my suffering friend had passed away on thursday morning.. i guess its the best way to end all sufferings.. no more pain.. god must really love him. to take him back into his arms so early.. all we have now is memories of him.. rest in peace my friend.. u will always be in my memory. you have fought hard enough now its time to enjoy eternity.. hope ur family members well and strong.. its time for u to look upon them.. from up above..

ibrahim 1980-2006

:P

2006-02-09T01:49:00.000+08:00

been awhile since i last updated this page.. think i am becoming kinda lazy to update my life.. cos its all the usual.. work work sleep sleep eat work sleep work drink mahjong sleep work.. nothing much going on.. cos its because my com was down for a whole week and i just got it up and running.. think my power point is getting alittle bit screwed.. screen cannot on.. after some medeling with afew plugs and there it can be used again..wierd huh?

anyways lots of doings this cny... had to go back to work on the 2nd day.. scraps.. but it was ok.. not much work to do anyways.. coming to an end already.. this year not a very good year for the goats , dogs, dragons and one more i cannot remember.. went to temple to pray.. hope its going to be a smooth riding dog year.. nothing cock up along the way.. this friday toto hong bao price is 10million dollars!!! 12 of us shared to buy system 12.. 1 number per person.. not asking for much.. group 4 enough liaoz..hehe

will be heading to bangkok soon.. next thursday..1st holiday of the new year.. gonna save up to go somewhere cold this time.. or not by coat can seal and keep for good already..hehe

2006-01-17T22:22:00.000+08:00

life is so unpredictable.. u can be healthy one day and be really sick the next.. feel so sad when i visited ibrahim this evening.. the state i saw him i almost teared.. he look so weak.. all skin and bones.. apprently during SOC days he had a small tumor behind his neck and was on a long MC.. went for kemo and stuffs.. came back after afew months and looked alrite.. when i ORD he had a relasp and it was quite bad.. went for lots of kemo and medication and apprently he was ok for awhile..

recieved a msg from bengbeng yesterday and found out ibrahim was admitted in dover hospice. was shocked to hear what happened.. according to his infomantion he told me bra only had like a couple of days left.. i was in total shock.. this guy used to play soccer macham beckham with us.. went for movies and makan at newton..went for the wwe smackdown tour together with his brother.. share the same quaters and all and suddenly he was down with cancer.. blood cancer.. leukemia.. (is that how u spell it?)

heard last week he was admitted to SGH and thought he was going to go.. water in his lungs.. couldnt breathe.. chocking.. to tell u the truth.. i was frightened of what i heard.. things he had to go through.. all the suffering and pain..couldnt walk no energy to get up.. on drips and dipers... saw his parents and they said no more kemo for him.. now only his will to survive and heal.. usually hearing that.. it doesnt really sound comforting. is it there is no more hope of curing? cancer cells had already spread all over his body.. he had quitted school for a long time.. the last time he spoken to me afew months back he was asking for his metal solid 2 game back.. haiz.. i'd better find it.. 25yrs old and hit with such a big impact.. but i know usually when this kind of thing hit someone.. they are just waiting for the day to move on..

dear ibrahim.. i pray for u to get better.. get well.. get better.. stay alive!!! u are still too young!!
now its the best time to lie to urself.. give urself lots of hope.. motive urself to live on.. please!

little updates..

2006-01-12T15:20:00.000+08:00

my new bed is coming tmr! weeeeee! spent almost my whole AWS buying it.. and bedsheets of course.. time to do a little spring cleaning.. chinese new year is coming .. but gotta work on the monday..shucks.. at least its morning shift.. not so bad.. applied for tuesday leave.. hope that ass clown approves..

will be flying to bangkok on 16th feb! going for a rock concert and OASIS is performing and other bands as well that doesnt really interest me..hehe.. if its not that good i will be going for the one at the indoor stadium..

wonder whats the bonus forcast.. think mine is gonna be pro-rated..

been raining non stop for the past week! need some sunshine.. need a tan!!!

2005-2006

2006-01-01T21:53:00.000+08:00

2005

been a crazy and wacky year.. lots of uphills and downhills..

been a year of recovery for those who have been hit by the tsumani on boxing day 2004

those who are working in NKF are going to be retrenched.. even though they are earning peanuts.. lots of peanuts.. about 60,000k of them..

people come and go..

those who were jobless now are finally working..

those who are alone is with someone..and the other way around..

things that are unexpected happened..

all are awaiting their year end bonus.. I KNOW I AM...!

made new friends..

saw some enemies..

saw how people changed.. from bad to worse.. to being more responsible.. more independent.. self centered.. selfish.. cunning.. from ugly duckling to a swan.. friends getting married..

another year of walk over during elections..

people grow older and fatter (ME) think its about time i start taking my health seriously.. no more weekends of drinking..

feel so much older now.. literly after going to mambo on wed.. can't believe the songs that we just jiggy and groove to last time now have dance movements! its like everyone bought a manual and memorised them! if only they can do the same for their studies huh?

been to hong kong, thailand, batam for holiday. whats for next year?will i ever get a chance to wear the coat i bought for $20?

mahjong becoming a weekly event all thanks to kev.. and finally unvailing the ture god of gamblers..

prices of cars dropped.. oil prices are crazy.. at one point of time it was 27% off!

so many events that flashed.. today is the 1st day of 2006.. looking forward.. i am prepared.. i can take all challangers.. (i hope) .. nothing is going to wear me down.. going to strive hard, work hard, live life to the fullest .. even though if people dun care.. i am still what i am.. being.. IVAN

goodbye 2005! HELLO 2006!!!

2005-12-30T03:42:00.000+08:00

saw this somewhere..

what makes u happy?
what makes u sad?
what makes u upset?
what makes u disappointed?
i've heard.. i understand..
no complains.. no choice..
said it.. meant it..
feelings..

counting down the days till 2006!
interested in going for oasis concert on 23rd feb?
details @ http://www.sistic.com.sg/SOPApp/SOPPortal/portal_proxy?uri==U409!E=A@fsy1LqHMgtx=RP2IEA=I45OAwsJFM

free standing @ $98.. they were banned from coming here the last time.. cannot miss this one.. haven been to a live concert since Project Superstars final..hahahhaa.. remembered Sugar Ray was suppose to come down also but due to 911 their balls shrunk dare not to take the plane.. i wanna go.. anyone wanna join me?

when are we going for holiday again? need to plan my leave 3months ahead now due to some unhappiness in the company.. so.... ? who is the organiser this time around..

KL on the 1st week of feb.. anyone?

check out the latest God Of Gamblers series in our main blog..
directed by kevin peter ong and sam teo miao six
camera sponsered by Ivan koh..

daily questions stumbled upon

2005-12-24T01:59:00.000+08:00

1. Whats the difference between ME and I?
2. In a triangle which corner is the most difficult to join?
3. How to avoid a shadow?
4. Selfish = care less?
5. Happiness = mindful?
6. Difference between wants and needs?
7. Truth hurts?
8. Denial hurts?
9. Friend or foe?
10. Who has the hardest job? salesman? delivery man? customer?
11. Who has the easiest job? salesman? delivery man? customer?
12. A quiet person has the most troubles? a loud person is keeping his sorrows?
13. A quiet person has full of complains? a loud person is just complaining?

hmmmmmmmmmm... tough arent they.. sometimes things like that cannot be avoided.. sometimes there isnt a correct answer to all the questions. sometimes the answer is quite obvious. whatever is it its how we see things..how we are going to tackle the problem. one has to be stragitic not only to ourself but to others as well. life is like that. its how we live it and play with it.

i think its quite true.. knowing sometimes u are in a lose lose situation.. u can prevent how much u are going to lose.. like mahjong.. cards not good.. cannot game.. so the only way is to play safe.. dun anyhow pah for people to game.. when u are winning.. knowing ur luck is good.. its how u are going to play big and game limit..

anyways heres wishing all the peeps a MERRY CHRISTMAS and a HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!
see u all in 2006!! all the best for the coming year!

wasssssssssssssup y'all

2005-12-19T22:29:00.000+08:00

too much alcohol intake over the past 3 weeks.. feeling so damn unhealthy now.. think my heart has been clogged up with tonns of ghee and oil.. better start living healthy or else dun think i will be able to live pass 55..

ZOUKOUT pics are out in the main blog... too much to drink as usual.. and unhealthy eating..
went to tiger brewery on friday and after tt MOS.. happening place.. but was too tired to enjoy.. too much to drink on that day..

christmas is just around the corner.. so.. WISHING U PEOPLE A MERRY CHRISTMANS and A HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

new years resolutions:
1. eat healthy
2. exercise more
3. work harder
4. enjoy just as much
5. win in every game of mahjong
6. try to renovate my room
7. try not to break any resolutions
8. at least strike once in 4D

maybe will be planning a weekend to go KL.. anyone intersted in going? no drive take bus.. comfy and relex... who on?

2005-12-06T23:02:00.000+08:00

christmas tree lights went off.. the only lights were coming out from the unextinguished cigarette butts from the trash bin.. .... to see more pics pls refer to the main blog! happy holidays!

2005-12-06T23:00:00.000+08:00

no u are not going to be beemed up to the star ship enterprice dear!!!!!!!

2005-12-06T22:58:00.000+08:00

made this joke.. kev is going to take his debit mini to pay for drinks.. and i stopped him.. i used my visa giant.. almost cant fit back into my wallet..whahahaha

2005-12-06T22:57:00.000+08:00

wonder what in the world they are looking at..

2005-12-06T22:56:00.000+08:00

me and my baby.. cute anot?!heheheh

2005-12-06T22:55:00.000+08:00

we were out taking pics around orchard.. christmas mood.. biggest tree that we saw.. lucky the lights were still on before apes and beng switched it off

SAESL DINNER AND DANCE 2005

2005-11-21T23:57:00.000+08:00

wassup wassup!!! been an eventful week with lots of happenings and alcohol.. friday nite was our company annual dinner and dance.. held at park royal hotel.. time 6.30pm - 1am. during the week a handful of us decided to go rent rent costumes for the function. theme for the nite was Wild Wild West! Go in cowboys , red indians... ect ect..

1st we headed down to No 1 costumes.. the place was in a mess! everything was everywhere.. dirty.. clothes were worn or torn.. most of the pieces were already rented out.. felt disappointed.. so heard to another one at bali lane called massquerades.. so much neater.. tired looking around for something but as usual.. most are rented out already.. Mr ravi managed to find a red indian costume for himself while the rest left in disappointment..

then we headed down to another place at peace centre.. best.. lots to choose from.. i wanted to go as zorro.. tried on the suit.. knnccb... the shirt and pants were so damn big loh! macham steamer hip hop zorro.. the only thing that fitted me nicely was the hat.. haiz.. anyways we din have much time and had to go to work already...

friday D&D nite.. just came home from work early in the morning.. took a long nap and met the guys a peace center again to rent something.. me, cheongster, deep and LL rented some cowboy hats while as expected Mr Mo had tua us once more.. came late and the shop was almost closing.. deep and me had this idea to wear a cow costume.. hahahah with tits hanging from our tummy.. anyways did i mention that best dressed will win a 100bux voucher? so anyways i got this big ass cow boy hat wich cost me 25bux to rent.. ccb.. so ex.. ravi rented his red indian costume for only 40bux.. then we hurried down to the hotel..

think our table had the best view and was nearer to the stage.. reached there had a couple of beers.. sean brought his own vodka bottle.. think within the hour was high already.. then the dinner started with games along the way.. the table behind us were full of foreign talents.. black foreign talents.. they were farking irritating man.. when the mc asked for volenteers practically the whole table stand up and ran to the stage..but nothing can beat our table man.. most happening.. most sporting.. almost won in every game available.. i will let the pics do the talking..

thats me in my big ass cowboy hat which cost me 25bux to rent.. was alittle heave though.. i like the bull horns on the top.. cool huh?hehehehehe

thats LL... Deep.. and the Cheongster.. LL looks like a cross dressed of ricky martin in the west.. deep wanted to be a sheriff... Cheongster in his beverly hillbilly suit.. heeee har! you go cowboys!!!

thats ravi in his big red indian costume.. all hail big chief! hooogashhhaaaakaaa hooogaaaashhhhakaaaalaaaa! and guess what.. both of us were in the finals of the best dressed costume! but eventually he won cos the mc said he put in more effort..pweee! kelong. btw.. he was drunk within 1 hour.. heavy drinker.. hail big red drunken indian!

thats me being norminated again to play 7up.. oh come on.. 7up? its zouk game loh.. how can i lose rite?hahaha but notice my hand... even the finance manger did not make it to the finals.. those bangala really irritating man.. think they are damn smart.. at every number also clap.. knnz.. anyways i was in the final 2.. by then.. we were playing 3 up.. i was lost after 20.... *burpz*

these are the rest of the peeps .. the food kinda sucks.. no nice one.. think our company held a record of 16 barrels of beer and 60 bottles of wine that nite.. black listed already.. last year D&D also the same... china black had to stop serving alcohol cos they are gonna make a loss already..hahaha.. wonder where will it be next year.. but overall we had fun.. they were telling all the stories of what happened at work on saturday.. freaking funny man.. heard some poeple already start puking at 9pm.. more after.. people wacking up some people.. lots of dancing around...this year's door gift was much better than the last! previous one was some gel test tube with our names in it.. bo liao.. this time there is a laser pointer cum pen.. toiletries bag and some nailcutter set.. hey cannot expect much la.. hehehe seeya all next year!!

nothing much eventful..

2005-11-15T12:55:00.000+08:00

its been a long long and tiring week!! finally get my long awaited rest.. not off days but no overtime today.. can sleep till abit later than usual.. quite contended already.. last week was like hell week.. an engine came in and was in a very bad shape. scary looking!! a group of us lead by ah beng took charge of this engine.. people from rolls royce and sia all came down to investigate what happen to this engine.. so no choice.. full strip the engine.. this must do that must do.. never endless.. 7days a week.. very tired.. saturday and sunday also must work.. finally it completed yesterday.. so happy..

anyways i managed to see the airbus A380 on friday.. was surprised that the head told me to follow trainer botak to airline house for some work. blardy hell everyone bluffed me say we were going to change the panels of the engine of the A380.. reached there was a boeing plane loh!!! knnccb.. make fun of me.. but who knows awhile later saw the airbus turning into the hanger.. it was damn huge man!! double decker.. can sit a capacity of 555 people.. 4 trent engines.. it was so huge that only 1/2 of the plane can park into the hanger!!

Friday was another mj nite.. called the gf after she had her wraps and asked where she was cos was going to meet her.. she said she was around her office area.. kev and apes were somewhere there having dinner.. well so i told her to decide where we shall go eat cos i need to change and go.. and the next msg that came in was 'we are going to play mj at ur place' so direct!! hahaha at least its a fast decision no need to discuss where to go.. so then we went for dinner 1st then headed home for mj.. i won again..hehehehehe

saturday work work work.. abit late for OT.. sure kena say one.. at nite went to this opening of balconey... think i haven been to heeren in ages.. din know that some club opened there! it used to be an open area for events now its a club cum al dente..went there early for free booze.. my thorat was damn pain man.. well nothing like a couple of beers to cool the throat huh?hehe.. anyways the place was packed with people.. all

kinds of people. suddenly the dj disappeared and they were playing LUSH 99.5.. knn.. cheapo.. like tt i also can open a club and just turn on the radio.. not much i can remember of tt place except of a jacuzzi in the end of the club and some cannot make it models went inside for a dip.. other than tt.. think need to go on a normal day to see how its really like. all club foods and drinks are quite costly.. and here are some pics of us having fun.. being drunk.. think tt nite was to bid farewell to our friend hanny.. he will not be seeing us anymore guys.... and to gary.. for being evil.. still remember tt joke we made about how angel's parents invite all the people from church and suddenly felt a presence of evil in the house.. then when they turned around saw gary.. no wonder he kend chased out of the house and angel din join us.. she had to be exorcised!!!! hahaha.. had to leave early tt day cos i was working on sunday and din wanna be late..

this friday is gonna be our company D&D.. theme for this year.. WILD WILD WEST! a bunch of us are gonna rent custumes.. one of them is gonna rent a red indian with the big bunch of feathers.. i was thinking of zorro! deep wanna become a catus.. mr cheong and mo wanna share and be a horse for me to ride on..ahhahaha... damn funny sia!!! will take pics on tt day if i can...next weekend the gf will be out of town with some of her friends to batam.. must be go there gao hun rite!!!!!! think i dunno..hmpth! will have to find my own program already.. maybe work again on sunday... i dunno.. see how it goes..

2005-11-04T04:29:00.000+08:00

wassup peeps! i am back! back from my long awaited holiday at hong kong.. not as cold or as good as i expected but can do .. a little short getaway with my gf.. spent lots of money but end up buying nothing much as i have expected. apprently 100hk$ is not the same as 100bhat! i kept on thinking it was till the gf reminded me of the exchange rate! dammmit.. bought 3 shirts for a 100 and i was thinking aiyah.. only 4 bux.. but its actually 22bux!! its either hk is getting their shirts from thailand or the other way around! went to afew places .. joint a half day tour.. ate dim sum at some resturant.. went to the harbour.. took lots of mtr rides.. disneyland.. so sad the gf was down with food poisoning and could not move much.. well.. i will always take care of u baby.. can read up on the trip on my gf blog.. most of the pics are up there... including taking pics with all the disney characters!! such a happy place MINUS the chinaman! they are really the spoilers of the place.. cut queue.. talk so loud.. got one kind of smell.. pwee! but it was nice reliving back my childhood days.. cannot compare to the euro and U.S disney.. think its only a quater of the size.. but heard from people that they are still expanding.. maybe more rides? space mountain wasnt what i have expected.. got myself a mickey shot glass.heh heh..

went back to work on tue... company was kinda empty cos its the festive season.. deepavali and hari raya.. went over to vik's place for lunch.. i love those tunduri chickens! thanks to his mama.. great food! sad thing is that i have to work on public holidays.. no holiday for me.. shift worker delima.. the gf was off and slacking at home.. wish i could spend everyday with her since she is not working.. thanks for all the 0.0000021 / 5 jokes.. heh heh..

tmr will be going to mr mo's place for visiting.. his wife just gave birth.. congrats man! tmr go see ur chubby baby daughter.. make sure there is food also!!!

short little update~

2005-10-21T01:46:00.000+08:00

can't wait.. 1 more working day for me and i am on a weeks leave! and i will be heading to hong kong! wish the weather there is cooling so i can wear the nice jacket i bought.. its still in the plastic bag haven taken out yet.. if the weather allows me to.. time to wash it!

been surfing around looking for roller hockey stuffs.. been quite awhile since i played that game.. want to join back again.. since i think ice hockey sure no chance to.. might as well roller rite?

next year lots of events going on(MAYBE).. maybe going to take my advance diving licence.. (hopefully and finally) .. my good friend is going to organise a sky diving trip.. maybe going to get another tattoo.. or tattoo my whole back..but still trying to find a nice design.. maybe join a hockey team..maybe maybe only..

ok la nothing much to tell u all about.. been quite sian this week. the weekend is approaching but dunno what to do.. saturday working.. sunday maybe OT... feeling hungry already.. gonna cook something to munch..

2005-10-16T17:40:00.000+08:00

dear auntie aggie,

i think the weekends are getting really really boring.. nothing much to do.. all alone at home on a rainy sunday.. had plans to go to sentosa..but stupid weather.. rain non stop.. scraps at least did something hearty yesterday.. went to bishan park to cycle.. then after that had a big meal of fried rice kang kong and pork chop.. then went to have a drink at beer keller (some place new) was home in less than hour.. bored bored.. watch soccer till i fell asleep.. today bored.. rain bored.. went to cut hair bored.. am i getting boring?when is it going to be exciting again? bored bored bored..

troubled..

i am back again!!

2005-10-09T17:23:00.000+08:00

another week passed.. time really flies by real fast.. walk having a footsul competitonn last week at hougang sports hall and today i just woke up at 4pm! amazing how much i can sleep.. guess i am just working too hard this week.. went back for OT everyday.. yes including my off day on friday.. guess i am earning as much as i can before i go for my hong kong trip (countdown in 2 weeks).. cant wait to have my long and well deserved break! last nite went out to clark quay for drinks.. not in the mood to club though.. was feeling kinda tired after work.. so i just tagged along with the rest of the peeps.. went to some china tong tong place where the live band played hokkien/chinese/canto music.. after which hopped over to a beng/techno disco.. old memories man.. remind me of my younger days when were hanging out at &%^&$&^()) places.. the techno were all so new skool as what kev would like to call it...hahahha but felt bored after awhile and decided to head home to bed.. so damn sleepy.. think my sleep last nite is to make up for the lost sleep over the past week.. feel so nice now..but then feeling so nua.. sleep too much.. feeling fat... nothing to do.. the gf wants to head down to daiso at jurong.. okok.. only if u drive..hehheh.. its an encouragement ok..

* just to off the topic for awhile..*
to my dearest friend.. u can always count on me to be ur counceller.. dun worry man.. i think u know what to do since we have already discussed about it.. dun rush it man.. best not to rush it.. let it go with the flow

*back*.. time to watch amazing race now.. what are we doing tonite? actually quite hard to plan things on a sunday cos some of us are having dinner with our family.. well.. just have to do our own things... singapore is quite boring at time if u dun know what to do.. maybe its time for a change in enviroment...??

2005-09-30T02:56:00.000+08:00

with the lights on.. not that nice though..

2005-09-30T02:54:00.000+08:00

i did a little deco to my room.. finally managed to hook up the ball of lights up.. nice and warm corner of mine.. looks so damn cosy man.. even my mom was impressed!! think my camera couldnt capture a nice shot so just post afew.. nice nice????hehe i give it a 9/10 for a job well done!

1 week off from work...

2005-09-29T17:20:00.000+08:00

3 days of reservist.. my mind was set in getting at least 400bux from there.. 200 from my ippt and 200 from shooting.. did some running over the past 2 weeks and trying to maintain the stamina there.. so far so good..

come tuesday morning.. IPPT.. woke up in the morning feeling abit unwell.. puked in the toilet while i was bathing.. thought maybe if i puked a little i might feel better.. then had a bite of a chicken pie before going to camp.. cleared all stations.. sit-ups 5 points.. standing board jump 4 points.. pull up 3 points.. shuttle run 3 points.. all set for the last station.. 2.4km run.. so far points looking good for a silver pass.. went to the starting point and boom! off i ran.. reached the 1.2 mark i was feeling giddy.. then suddenly.. &^&^%#$^#*&)()*&#&^%**( i started puking.. oh craps.. confirm cannot make it already.. was thinking silver cannot insentive pass also can.. tried to continue running... 1.8km mark.. puke again.. this time.. i gave up.. craps... 16min to complete my run.. failed.. there goes my 200bux.. wasnt feeling so good the whole day.. went to see the doctor after that and found out i am having stomach/gastic flu.. he gave me a few pills and i was feeling like shyt.. stomach was sour.. no feeling in my tounge.. dun feel like eating though i was feeling damn hungry.. the gf called asking how i was.. no good.. couldnt sleep well.. how nice it will be if she was beside me to look after me.. but... i was all alone at home.. think she is happy that i am sick so i wont bug her.. wanted to watch cl match but was glued on the bed and din feel like moving much.. so i just toss and turn.. toss and turn.. toss and turn t...o...s.s... an..d .... ...t ......u.........r....n.....zzzzzzzzzzzz

next morning.. classification shoot.. this time must get the money.. no matter how sick i was shooting must get marksman!!!! and i did! at least i got 200bux from the govt. not as much as i have expected but can do la.. better than not getting anything this year.. should i go and re take my ippt?hmmm... nah~

sunday gonna have a futsol competition.. cant wait.. at nite going for some erotic dance show.. cant wait! i wanna have an erotic dance! kinky!!!!!!!!!!! monday.. L11 and H11 papers.. no prep cos nothing to refer to.. just go and take.. test my luck..heh heh..

anyways...its thursday... and i am on leave! actually feel quite boring staying at home and nothing to do... feel like going for a swim but still not feeling well so better not.. got craving for carl's jr burgers.. saw the adverts and it was so mouth watering!!!!!! wanna bite my teeth into the big juicy patties!! btw MacChicken is only 2 bux this week.. should i???hmmmm.....

2005-09-20T02:38:00.000+08:00

i just got this feeling that something big is gonna happen.. i cant point my finger to it but i can just feel it.. and it aint good.. its like i know something is heading my way but there is no way i can shant away from it cos i dunno where or what or when... or is something wrong with me?am i thinking too much over nothing? am i getting paranoid? am i going to become mental? i may be distracted but i will suddenly have the same feeling back again.. am i losing control of myself? am i becoming insecured? these few days i just cant stop grinding my teeth.. cant stop clenching my fist.. just got this feeling to bite something real hard till it breaks.. want to grab something and crush it in my hands.. this aint good.. what is happening to me?? i need a stress ball!!! my fingers are feeling stiff.. just cannot control it.. what if its true that something major is going to take place? like the tsumani?like an earthquake? like a volcano eruption? unexpectedly hits everyone in the face.. there is no time to react.. no time to avoid.. no self control... whats wrong with me?!?!~??!~?!~ argh.. !!

2005-09-13T22:01:00.000+08:00

nothing much to update about.. guess all the events that go on within our group can be read in the rest of the peeps blog.. including pics! anyways nice car shot guys! if it was brighter it would be better.. think we have written our names in the gunniess book of records of ther most number of people fitting into a picanto!!!! hahahaha that was damn freaking funny man.. dunno the suspension still can tahan all of our weight.. esp all the heavy weights who were in there..

was thinking about joining venture with gayr's sis in opening a eatary..location will be somewhere in bukit timah.. fine dining and all.. theme will be chocolates.. got to admit it.. gary's sis is a out of this world cook! the mussles that day was just fantastic!! good for people like hanny and **** ... its going be a high risk venture come to think of it.. dun have much money to invest in.. maybe go take a loan from my parents.. need to see her proposel 1st before deciding if i should join in or not.. cos one thing for sure.. opening a place in bt is only attracting ang mors , lunch and dinner crowd.. but for finr dining doubt will be lunch time cos most people just want to eat and go. no time to slowly finish a 3 course meal.. dun think they would want a 3 course meal during luch also.. well.. just listing our some of the pros and cons.. one thing is for sure is that the menu will look great.. and furthermore opening at a place like this price of the menu will have to go up.. but then again.. most of all the cafes and diners there are roughly selling the same stuffs and same price.. how is she going to make it stand out from the others?one of the factors to consider is that its going to be high risk.. wouldnt want open a place and last less than a year and lose everything.. got to fine a day when can sit down and talk serious with them..

other than that.. just feel so tired these few days.. think its the lack exercise and stuffs.. cant wait for my holiday to come!!! 6more weeks!!!!!!!!! need a break soon.. need to enjoy..

eternal sunshine of a spotless mind

2005-09-06T11:05:00.000+08:00

how can someone come up with a title like this for a movie? its just too damn long.. movie titles should be short and easy and never be more than 3 words long.. another movie title which i think its damn stupid is the dunno what of the ya ya sisterhood.. its actually an adaptation from some book i think.. too long too long! dun movie makers understand when u go queue up to buy a movie ticket and the amount of words u have to say? an extra 2 seconds! 10 people 20seconds.. 29178034129038 people makes it 3 years of ur life queuing up just to buy a ticket.. movie makers thought its going to be a arty farty show with that kind of title.. why not make it " the everlasting irritating kang kong that always gets stuck in between the two front teeth" ~

anyways back to the topic.. quite a twisted show actually.. twisted not as in sick twisted.. but somehow its intrigingly twisted.. the story twist at the begining and at the end.. stars jim carrey and kate 'titanic' winslet.. its about how one person erase the other from her mind knowing how boring he is and all that.. and when jim carrey found out what happened he did the same thing but regreating it.. and they tried starting all over again.. was wondering what are the things that are worth keeping or erasing from our memories.. happy sad ocassions? fun bad times? love hate situation? in the show he wanted to erase cos he din want to remind him of her cos she did the same thing to her..( u people must be thinking HUH??? si mi sai... go watch and u will understand..)

finally the tix for my hk trip is confirmed! waiting for the tour agency to issue me my tix and i am off to disneyland!!!! so excited!!! off we go!

time to pack!!!

2005-08-30T00:49:00.000+08:00

its been a long long week.. pratically working overtime almost everyday... but all of that will have its just rewards.. hard work alittle bit more can earn alittle bit more.. lots of things going thru my head lately though it shouldnt bother me much but somehow or rather it does.. making me feel awakard when i think about it..

to hanny... when will i get the chance to sit ur car??? thought u were going to pick me up that day,..made me wait for u...............................................................

anyways... its settled.. me and the gf have already book our free and easy package to hong kong.. bye bye bangkok hello hong kong! going during the peak period though.. cos dun think i am able to apply long leave other time during the year already.. so i am going at the end of oct! 5days 4 nights.. 1 free pass to disneyland and a night stay at disney hollywood hotel! so exciting! i am going to relive my childhood! going to take pics with mickey mouse.. beat up donald duck.. kick goofy.. ride space mountain for 34times again..hehehe.. going somewhere where the weather is cooling.. finally my jackets can be put to good useage.. i think its a good package.. went around chinatown just now and enquire about some packages and it cost ard 850bux! the package we took was ard 790.. well.. i guess its kinda alright.. taking cathay instead of vlaueair.. so u know what that means....! alcohol on board!!!! anyone interested in going? i booked my package from SA tours.. i think its reasonable cos high season and with disneyland involved.. looking good... the gf is getting excited that she wanted to pack her bags already..hahahha.. 2 more months and counting.. buy things eat food (mai dong xi chi dong xi) hope able to meet jacky chan..hahahahha.. in my dreams man!!! hmmm.. maybe can look around for some car stickers.. hope its cheap.. we are going to explore around.. maybe check out the clubbing scene there..but think its going to be roudy judging by what i see on tv..

lastly.....happy birthday to the biatch/shit blender/ man u taker/ huat brudder KEV! may all ur wishes of being tao pok come true!

~!@#$%^&*()_+|

2005-08-22T13:51:00.000+08:00

nothing much have been going on.. been working 7days a week last week.. feeling so damn tired and sick of work already.. need to go on a break soon.. need to go for a short holiday.. me and the gf were thinking of hk.. price quite ok.. includes a night stay at disneyland hotel!!! how exciting is that? brings us all back to our childhood days!! M I C K E Y.. M O U S EEEEEEEEEE... and his slut.. donald who cannot speak a single word of english.. and goofy who is a dog who can talk but why not pluto?!?!?! so exciting!! gotta save up already.. planned should be going on the end of oct.. before the hari raya period.. by tt time dun think i am able to take leave already.. so its best to clear early.. wonder who else might be interested in going.....

anyways congrats to hanny for finally being attached..
think u owe me a drink!*

today today..

2005-08-14T17:43:00.000+08:00

i was listening to this song on wkrz91.3 just the other night on the way home and suddenly i felt so sad. i think its a french song coz there was lots of "jeur" and "bon" inside.. something like a french jazzy beats and i can actually picture the song in my head.. it felt so damn real and its like i can see the whole motion inside my mind.. i was like a drastic and saddening event happening.. cant really make out what kind it was but it was just flashing across my mind.. i almost teared while driving.. and for the record i was not drinking nor drunk! it was after work on the way home along TPE.. maybe some of u peeps out there have ever experience this kind of thing before.. like a song just hits u and made a big impact... not really a significant one but it just so happen to.. happen! or it can be the other way around when u hear a happy song that will brighten up your day.

anyways the weekend has passed.. friday had my long awaited off day.. played mahjong with my colleauges at my place.. still a home win.. time to win on away... after tt went to meet the peeps for dinner at ms again.. for like the 3rd time this month.. after tt had lager before heading home.. saturday worked my butt off.. went to zouk with the rest of the peeps.. hanny seems so unfriendly when we walked in.. ignored us loh~ busy mah.. what to do.. the only days when he is free to meet us is when he is on MC.. haiz.. hanny hanny.. anyways good luck to u and crystal.. think her friend likes u too! hahahah.. the gf was feeling depressed and down and went home early.. she had been like this the whole week.. asked her whats the matter and she just said nothing.. hope u feel cheerful again ok?dun feel so down.. if there is anything i am always here to listen to all ur complains and sorrows.. dun keep it to urself.. maybe there is something that i can do??? haiz.. chain reaction.. u not happy i not happy also.. :(

sunday.. was called to go to wotk today but i thought was going to drink last nite better not.. sure to be late for work or walk like a zombie... work up at 2plus but still feel sleepy.. better dun sleep so much.. wouldnt want to waste my day sleeping.. so went to play some ps2.. then decided to go for a run.. i declared myself super unfit! only 20mins and i am already coughing and penting.. bad bad.. got to buck up.. reservist coming soon.. in a month!!! going to start training already.. need to pass my IPPT.. anyways.. i am going to bathe now.. wonder whats the plans later....

Back to the future

2005-08-10T01:00:00.000+08:00

was watching this show on HBO just now.. i love all of them! part 1 2 and 3! should i get the box set?hehe.. maybe the indiana jones ones too!!!

well was watching this show i just wondered.. what will happen if we were able to go back to the past to change the future? will the future be different? what are we going to expect? maybe some of us at some point of time might have regreated doing something.. maybe things will turn out differently if we did not do or did do something.. maybe something shouldnt have happened but it did...but due to this are things better/worse this way? in the movies its so fiction.. able to see the past and in between that will link to the future..

anyways there is no way that u can change the situation that it is now.. its how u are going to enhance it.. how u are going to make it better.. how u are going to take it right smack in the face.. decisions made cannot be changed.. its like choosing a job.. who knows if i had not gone for this interview i wouldnt be working in this company now? if i have passed my papers i wouldnt be stuck for 3 extra months? or even meet people who are helping u in ur life now? what if i was not working there.. will i be somewhere else? will i be happier? will i be able to find the job that i want? what if i had waited a little longer before signing the bond.. but i am happy with the things are now..stable job.. nice and wonderful gf that i love... crappy family ( i mean with crappy jokes) friends that are fun to be with.. i believe any decisions that i've made are correct ones.. one must not have any regreats or not u will be complaining after.. but if u were able to go back to the past what will u change??

maybe i would go back to make sure i study harder..so i wont have any difficulties entering the uni.. or maybe i should have gone overseas to study? what will happen if i did? or if i had signed on in SOC.. will it be different? or if i never met some people will i still be the same? no one knows.. but all i can say maybe the path of our future has already been set.. making the decison is planned.. its how u are going to take the next step forward.. so whats next in life for me? what is my next step?am i going to make the right choice? should i do this or that? should i compromise to the situation?

itching..

2005-07-31T14:34:00.000+08:00

my debit card has been eaten up but the atm machine! i have no access to all my funds! lucky won some money from mahjong session on friday.. seriously.. it was the most i have won so far.. couldnt believe that all my cards are so nice and good... is it luck? or is it skill?? i guess i can say its mostly luck.. but then again.. lucky i got skills also.. all my cards were scraps to the max and no one is feeding me.. a change of tactics did the trick.. need to get my debit card back!!!

here's something interesting..

Mah Jong (mah jongg) is a traditional Chinese tile game with manyvariations. An ancient game widely played in China and Japan, "American" mahjong came to the U.S. in the 1920s. "Mahj" became very popular, particularly in Jewish-American women's circles. The "American" version of the game uses of special cards outlining combinations of hands that players collect. Also widely played in the U.S. is the Chinese version of the game. This traditional version is simpler, and yet many believe it to be more enjoyable. These notes present a traditional Chinese variation of mah jong.

In Chinatowns throughout the country, mah jong is played regularly and often associated with gambling and serious competition. For those who simply love games, mah jong can be played with the same enthusiasm and competitive spirit for "bones" or "chips" signifying points. It is with the "friendly play" viewpoint that these notes are offered. One warning, however: you may become hooked! You may begin to want to play all the time, and will spend your free time searching for different types of sets to collect. Beware!

The game resembles playing card games like rummy. Many assert that playing cards are derived from the ancient tile game of mah jong. In the absence of the beautiful sets, often made of bone and bamboo,the game may also be played with special cards.

The literal translation of "Mah Jong" is "flax/hemp" "sparrow clattering." Those who play the game love the sound of the tiles as they are mixed together prior to the start of each hand. Listening carefully, players hear the sound of the flax blowing in the wind and the sparrows clattering.

These notes should help the novice learn to play the game of mah jong. Ideally, four interested players should study the notes together, and find their way through a few hands. Before long, you will be playing with certainty and confidence, and enjoying this game of skill and luck.

A complete set contains 144 tiles. The tiles fall into four categories: suits, honor tiles, flowers and seasons.

There are three suits: the dots (also called circles or balls), the bamboos (also called bams or sticks), and the characters (also called characks, cracks, or wan). The suit tiles are numbered 1 through 9, and in any given suit, there are four of each number. Suit tiles may be either simple or terminal. Terminal tiles, 1s and 9s, are more valuable in winning, than simples, 2s through 8s. Most American sets have English numbers on each tile in addition to the correct number of symbols (dots or bamboos). In the character suit, instead of the corresponding number of symbols on the tile, the Chinese numeral character appears above the character signifying 10,000. A "one crack" then would have the Chinese character for the number one, above the Chinese character for the number 10,000 -- signifying "one ten-thousand" or one "wan." If a set does not have the English numbers on the tiles, the Chinese characters for 1 through 9 must be memorized. A true Chinese set will not have any other numbers appearing on the tiles. The 1 bamboo is usually a bird.

Character Tiles

There are two types of honor tiles: the winds (East, South, West, and North) and the dragons (Red, Green, and White). Just as there are four of each suit number, there are four of each wind and four of each dragon. As with the character tiles, the wind tiles usually have the corresponding English letter on the tile. If the set does not have these letters, players must memorize the Chinese symbol for each of the directions.

The dragons appear on some Americanized sets as dragons in the colors in red, green and white. On more traditional sets, the red has the Chinese character (in red) for Cheung -- meaning center of the four directions. Some sets will have a "C" on the red dragon character tile. Similarly, in traditional sets, the green dragon is not really a dragon, but a green imprinted Chinese character, Fa (or Fa Choy), meaning "commence" or "begin good luck." The green dragon will often have an "F" appearing on the tile.

The white dragon (also known as white board, soap, bak board, or pak board) may have a rectangle on the tile. In some sets, a "P" or "B" appears as well.

The flower and season tiles differ in nature from the suit and honor tiles. There are only 4 flowers (1, 2, 3, and 4) and only 4 season tiles (1, 2, 3, and 4). Some versions of the game call for exclusion of the flower and season tiles. In most Chinese-American circles, they are used however. Their use is somewhat like that of the joker in card games. When drawn, they are declared and a substitute tile is drawn. They are not collected for scoring, but as will be described later, the flower(s) or season(s) corresponding with the winning player's wind may double the winning score one or more times.

interesting huh?:P

some thoughts....on some stuffs...

2005-07-25T00:52:00.000+08:00

it was said.. when 1 leaves another will come.. yang.. we will all miss u here.. esp someone..heheh seriously.. if u think its not right better make it clear to that person.. like one of my friend who finally did.. though its hard or sad or difficult u just have to do what its right.. no point leaving that person in the middle of nowhere.. hoping that he/she is heading in the direction that is suppose to be.. if talking face to face is difficult.. what other forms of communication are there? email? sms? snail mail? but then again when u want it the other party is not willing.. and when the other party is willing u dun want it.. what comes around goes around? not to be mean but i guess this is how it goes.. unless both of u are willing to come out with a situation then it wont be so tough on either one of u..

bet some of us have gone through this sometime in our lifetime.. its something that we cannot miss.. making decisions on tough questions.. are guys more sensative than girls? or are girls more sensative than guys? let's say if a guy choose to end something.. is he being unfair? what are the odds of people thinking that its always the guy's fault? outside parties should put his/herself in the guy's shoes and think about it for awhile...

me bengz kev yang apes and the gf were at beach bar on friday and suddenly was discussing some topic.. when finally asked about that we all have different views from the girls.. the girls think the guy is being a bastard but try putting urself in the situation... its not easy to put a correct answer on it.. yeah there is neither right or wrong to it but got to weigh the consiquences of what will happen after.. guys heartless?i guess not.. girls not sensative? i guess not too..

anyways yang.. better make things clear to her soon..

lets welcome back jason!! mahjong my place this saturday?

graduation!!!

2005-07-23T13:17:00.000+08:00

after 2 long years of hardwork! i have officially graduated from my part time studies!! had a little graduation ceremony at carlton hotel on thursday. finally got a chance to wear the square hat again! the last time i remember wearing this was during the graduation from kindergarden..hahha freaking long ago! but it felt really good.. UTS 5 well done! congrats to those who have passed! surprisingly people are getting 1st class and 2nd class honours.. for all the hardship that we have gone through together.. well done guys!! thanks for all the cutting and pasting in times of need.. thanks to the lecturers who have helped us... it was a fun experience for all.. hope this degree is useful for your work in the near future.. opportunities are open to a new level.. keep in contact all!!!!

short one...

2005-07-23T13:07:00.000+08:00

its been a long time since i updated man... anyways its good to see yang again... he has turned into a beach boy!! face like exposed too much to the sun.. but was surprised to find out what is happening in his life.. shall not touch so much on that cos i think u guys should already know more than me.. heh.. he came back for so long but din really have the chance to mmet up with him till this week.. played number ball with him though he was out to eat our money!!! went there to practice is it? thats why is was the only sole winner that night.. luckily we played $1 , $2 divided by 10..hahah thanks man.. anyways play for the fun of it only right? then the following few days came over to play place to play mj.. i haven touch my mj set for the longest time already!! hands were super itching to play man.. biggest winner that day.. the gf! lucky? or skillful?hmmmmms.....

pics are uploaded in no particular order

2005-07-12T01:39:00.000+08:00

this is the hotel that we stayed in.. sign board was falling already..lucky me and bengz were holding it..

we are all set! getting ready to spend our money..

cheers baby.. after this its shopping for u.. let me finish my pint 1st...

one of the ways to quit smoking... or is he just hard core?????

me and my gf..enjoying the view..

bengz and his thai gf enjoying each other..

this pic freaking funny man.. reminds me of that brand of peanuts...hahahah.. so young but look so old already..hahaha how much is the hoon kee?

at the rooftop sky lounge...happening man.. but then i feel like a pimp..hahahah

bengz felt so sian cos he thinks he bought alot of scrap tees for his bro.. mai sian mai sian..

i just had to do this!!

is that the biggest cigarette u have ever seen????

some of my buys..almost countn't fit everything into my bag..dammit!

the hotel room was damn huge man!

bengz..think u are smoking too much.. there is something coming out from ur nose!

artistic shot outside MBK.. i am hungry then.. hand shaking

get out of the way! mad shopper on the lose!!!

lets dig in!! angel's last day at bkk before going back to work.. well.. at least we went hollywood!

view of bkk from the 1st floor.. such a sweet couple..

view of bkk from 83rd floor of the hotel

bengz.. after meal after beer.. relec mode ON

thats me..after meal after beer... relec mode ON

2 tom yam soup please...kap-kun-kap~

2 tom yam soup and lots more food at suan lum night bazzar

think this is our only group photo together.. notice the huge shopping bag!!

yeah we actually went there 4 days in a row!! cannot believe it!

i love to eat paper pizza!

me and the gf showing off the tourist look at MBK foodcourt

taking a cab all the way to adidas warehouse

i am backk!

2005-07-11T13:25:00.000+08:00

hihihihihi! i am back from bkk!!! bought so many things! but then again when i unloaded them all out in my room it seems that i didnt buy that much stuffs.. even though the moto was "JUST BUY" i din think so much on what to buy.. it went damn fast man.. before i know it i am going to work later..sucks.. should i take urgent leave?hmmm.. bengz is currently at home now waiting for my pics to transfer to him.. he can complain jetlag when its only an hour time difference man!! here is a short summary of that we did...

day 1

arrived at bkk international airport.. walked out from the customs and it was raining.. so sianz.. 1st day only start to rain already.. took a cab to go to the hotel.. and the cab ride took us almost an hour! was falling asleep inside + the heavy rain outside..zzzzzzz..

finally we reached the hotel.. baeyoke sky hotel.. the tallest hotel in the whole of thailand.. 83 stories.. but outside looks kinda scraps.. the lobby is on the 18th floor... quickly went to our room and omg! the room was so damn big man!! there is even a walk in wardrobe! nah not that kua-zhang (boasting) but its seriously damn big.. a king size bed and a single bed.. ok enough about the rooms.. so then we decided to head down to MBK to start our shopping.. shop shop.. no need to think so much.. just buy only.. bought many many t-shirts.. then saw the ball of lights that hanny wanted.. went in to ask but din have the colour.. say stock will only come in tmr.. so ok.. maybe somewhere else got sell.. so.. walk around more buy more then we met angel who was currently having her orientation week at armari watergate hotel for dinner at mbk food court.. the food was ok.. not fantastic or anything like that.. normal.. edible.. the gf has already bought a big china bag full of shoes! think can last her for a whole year! seriously...a whole year! think she wish she was born as a millipede so can wear all her shoes at once..hahahahha after dinner headed back to our hotel and there was a pasa malam there.. spend awhile shopping there before going back to put our stuffs and take a nice warm shower.. after that.. guess where we went.. HOLLYWOOD! i miss that place... so nice to see so many stars again that night..hehehehe

day 2
adidas warehouse here we come.. quite disappointed though.. nothing much there to buy.. i bought a trackpants just to wear to grapevine cos its always so cold there..hehehe.. bengz din have breakfast with us so we went to the pizza company to makan..then it all begins.. bengz, gf and me start taking stupid photos.. hahaha we really have nothing to do man.. *see pics of bengz blog* then we heaed back to mbk for more shopping.. shop shop shop.. this time i bought countless of things and finally bought the ball lights for hanny..(made me go back cos no stock on the 1st day) and the gf was already fully loaded! went back to the hotel and lay-pak at the swimming pool awhile...at nite went to suan lum night bazzar to shop and have dinner.. din buy anything much from there though.. maybe cos got to bargain thats why.. no mood to do that.. so just walked around for abit then went back to hotel room to concuss...zzzzzzzzzzz

day 3
wholesale wholesale! the wholesale market was directly across our hotel.. surprise surprise.. so decided to walk there instead of going so far away.. it was like a mini chacuchat but prices were lots cheaper and no need to bargin.. there i bought afew long sleeve shirts just in case i need it in the future.. walked somemore and really no more mood to buy anymore stuffs.. think i have already bought all on the 2nd day.. so just went around aimlessly but who knows i bought myself another pair of jeans.. fits really well and i love the colour.. those stone wash u can find at levis.. then finally decided to tailor make a suit and pants for myself.. 3000bhat.. dunno if its ex or cheap.. heard from the gf tt a normal suit at g2000 is already $150+.. but i saw at mbk selling suit alone is 1500bhat... errr...so cheap or ex.. anyways.. after which went back to rest awhile and deciding where to go for dinner... and u guessed it! MBK again!!! nothing much going on there and came back to the hotel. went up to the sky lounge for a drink.. quite relexing.. bengz found a thai gf there..heheheheh.. knnz.... i asked him to take pic with her he ham cheese to ask so i went to ask if my fren can take pic with her...hahaha think beng felt damn happy after that.. must have made his trip..

day 4
time to come home.. recieved a call in the morning that our flight has been delayed.. 2 hours later.. so ok.. we skipped breakfast and slept awhile more.. and guess what... we end up at MBK eating KFC for lunch.. bengz and me went to walk around but felt sian already so we sat down to have a latte and look around to see who can bring home..hahahaha.. ok la i am lazy to type so much already so enjoy the pics!!

its time to go!!!

2005-07-07T11:45:00.000+08:00

me and the bengzter are now currently at airport terminal 1 waiting for our flight to bkk!! cant wait... neither can he.. think he is more interested in waiting to see all the thai chinese available on the airplane... dun worry bengz.. confirm sure to have 1 or 2...or maybe 3 or 4... long time never wine and dine in the sky... the last time i took thai airways was that time i went to phuket with my baby.. thailand thailand.. wonderful thailand.. time to shop like crazy.. must remember my moto for the trip.. "JUST BUY" no need to think so much..hahahhaa... going to find angelz tonite.. hopefully her handphone is working.. hmmm..where shall we go tonite.. so many questions... need to decide when i am on board.. now cannot think.. time check is 1145am.. half an hour more before boarding time.. i am having my morning coffee fix.. finally managed to buy some duty free ciggs.. felt abit high man..hahhaa... time useage is running up.. will update if i have the chance to...seeya all!!!!

2005-07-06T21:04:00.000+08:00

i am going to bkk tmr!!! i cannot wait!!!
bengz!!!!change money already anot??knnz..
i am going to pick u up at 1030am!!!
angelz.. we are going to party when i touch down.. will give u a call..
the the gf and friends.. happy shopping!!!
to the rest of the peeps! have an enjoyable weekend!!!

1 more new entry

2005-07-04T01:10:00.000+08:00

nothing much to update about this time.. weekend was the same.. went down to winbar on saturday nite cos its gary's bday but the members there were lesser than usual.. remembered last year when we did a surprise bday thingy for him.. all thanks to angel* for being the mastermind.. but the peeps remembered what happened too.. the look on his face was damn ****** (sorry man.. there is no words i can think of) almost wanted to give him a tight slap and tau-pok him! hahaha all the memories.. after that again we surprised him at zouk! all thanks to angel again for being the mastermind of that.. at least he bought some jugs to repay our efforts..heh heh.. this year was just a normal chill out at the bar.. some e33s a long island some kamakazi shots and martini 7ups! ahhh.. nothing like a nice drink after a week of hard work..

as for today.. woke up at 4pm! haven been doing that since dunno when! felt that half my day has been wasted... went to j8 to have dinner with my parents.. its been quite long since i have sat down and ate with them.. the gf joined as too.. after which my mama complained her hp got some problems and went to buy a new one.. after that kept on asking the sales person so many questions on the functions! and that was the most basic phone on the market! cannot tahan her man.. think the sales person also cannot tahan.. cannot wait for us to leave the shop...hahahha then she claims her phone looks empty and need to buy one of those thingy to hang on her new hp.. i told her dun worry..i go bkk i buy for her.. guess whats her reply.. "..har...so long?" wtf?! i am going on thursday loh..hahahah.. then she was walking around to find a shop that sells that.. and ask the gf which one nicer.. hello kitty or doreamon..... the gf had lots of ??????????¿¿¿¿¿¿.. was shocked to hear my mama asking her this kind of question..hahahhaha..

then we headed to our new meeting place at grapevine.. had a nice coffee frap fries and chicken bites.. chat awhile before heading home.. and now i am infront of the com typing.. think we are going to hang out that place more often now.. the drinks are cheaper than daze.. but i still prefer daze.. at least there is a big screen for football nites... one things for sure... no matter where we go.. kev and gary will always be late.. and kev stay so near to grapevine!!!!!! 5mins away!!!!argh.. when will they ever be early for meetings? should start to fine these people.. $1 per min.. even if u are late will only be like 5 or 10mins... 1hour?unbareable!~

i am going to pack light for my trip.. go there half empty come back full! this time no need to think so much on what to buy... moto for this trip: "JUST BUY" muahahahha going to meet angel on thur nite for some drinks.. will be back to update!!! ciaoz~

July July July

2005-06-29T04:09:00.000+08:00

Things that are going to happen this July...

1. Bangkok here i come!
2. Father's birthday
3. My Graduation!

din expect to made my decision so fast on going for this trip..
din expect that i am going to bkk to get my daddy his birthday present
din expect that i graduated with a Second Class Upper Honors!

counting down the days... 10 more days to go!

2005-06-27T12:21:00.000+08:00

ok its settled! i am heading to bangkok in 2 weeks! be it leave approve or not i am still going!!! yay! cant wait.. was discussing with beng what to buy and what not to buy... everything is going to be XL for sure! dun wanna come back with many clothes but all cannot wear...but this time there is no more Club 9003... maybe no Hollywood... confirm no ayuthuya! my tickets are booked and hotel still waiting for the gf's friend to book for us.. hope beng this time can see some thai chinese on the airplane... wonder whats the difference between thai native and thai chinese??? both also from thailand leh.... now play colour is it?hahaha

another weekend passed... seems like there is nothing much to do in town already.. friday we went to explore a new place near kev's place. well... actually we go pass it many times but have never gone in for a drink..

here is an overview of that place...
-Grapevine-
drinks: cheap!
atmosphere: relexing!
waiterst: beng like!!

too bad we reach that place kinda late.. anyways its quite cosy.. like happy daze. i give it ***

can consider going back there again for a drink..

Saturday nite was at winebar... seems like hanny is getting very popular among the ladies.. saw many chaiz flocking to him that nite.. wonder if its the shirt that he is wearing that is attracting them...hmmm... wonder when is hanny going to find one.. maybe he is on the verge of getting one already? sunday called him but he din call back.. then found out he was out with some CHAIz watching movie... hanny... whatever it is i will support u.... btw... hows ur ear?hehehehehe

last nite went for a beer at wala wala.. thought E.I.C was playing oasis but turns out they have gone for a holiday! so disappointed! but the other band was ok.. not too bad.. the gf was ogeling infront of him..so were apes and angel! please wipe off the drool!! the table wet already!!! then sent apes and the rest of the peeps home.. kev.. the route was so damn long man.. if i had taken the xpressway all the way back think can reach 10mins earlier.. trust me.. too many windings and traffic lights...

its back to work today... sians.. i feel so unhealthy .. need to do alittle exercise.. shall go and carry some weights and so push ups now...