life is so unpredictable.. u can be healthy one day and be really sick the next.. feel so sad when i visited ibrahim this evening.. the state i saw him i almost teared.. he look so weak.. all skin and bones.. apprently during SOC days he had a small tumor behind his neck and was on a long MC.. went for kemo and stuffs.. came back after afew months and looked alrite.. when i ORD he had a relasp and it was quite bad.. went for lots of kemo and medication and apprently he was ok for awhile..

recieved a msg from bengbeng yesterday and found out ibrahim was admitted in dover hospice. was shocked to hear what happened.. according to his infomantion he told me bra only had like a couple of days left.. i was in total shock.. this guy used to play soccer macham beckham with us.. went for movies and makan at newton..went for the wwe smackdown tour together with his brother.. share the same quaters and all and suddenly he was down with cancer.. blood cancer.. leukemia.. (is that how u spell it?)

heard last week he was admitted to SGH and thought he was going to go.. water in his lungs.. couldnt breathe.. chocking.. to tell u the truth.. i was frightened of what i heard.. things he had to go through.. all the suffering and pain..couldnt walk no energy to get up.. on drips and dipers... saw his parents and they said no more kemo for him.. now only his will to survive and heal.. usually hearing that.. it doesnt really sound comforting. is it there is no more hope of curing? cancer cells had already spread all over his body.. he had quitted school for a long time.. the last time he spoken to me afew months back he was asking for his metal solid 2 game back.. haiz.. i'd better find it.. 25yrs old and hit with such a big impact.. but i know usually when this kind of thing hit someone.. they are just waiting for the day to move on..

dear ibrahim.. i pray for u to get better.. get well.. get better.. stay alive!!! u are still too young!!
now its the best time to lie to urself.. give urself lots of hope.. motive urself to live on.. please!